Indeed, we all make many mistakes. For if we could control our tongues, we would be perfect and could also control ourselves in every other way. James 3:2 NLT
Can you relate? I sat down to do an activity that I, well, did not REALLY want to do. My husband asked me to do it, and since he does so many wonderful things for me, I obliged (this time ;-).
I began typing a document with the attitude that I would complete it, but not to the level of agonizing perfection I have in the past, belaboring, changing every little tittle, too many times to count. However, I was nearly giggling as I texted a friend that I was almost done and had never had so much fun doing this particular task……and then IT happened.
Somehow I messed up the margins and could not figure out how to correct them in my relatively new word processing package. So I copied and pasted and recreated the masterpiece, which took another 20 minutes, at least! Ugh. Then, I discover that another document is necessary. I begin happily banging away at the keyboard: “creating” as I love to do. Job two is now done. Uh, Oh….another step is required to complete this dutiful task for my sweet man – I must complete a series of online questions. I am on a roll, that is until I accidentally press enter – prematurely – and have to begin ALL over again. And again. And finally with the third notice of a ‘system error’….This is really testing my patience. It is really beginning to RUB me the WRONG way. I am feeling my insides well up. I am beginning to start the wrong mental program of ‘blame’, ‘anger’, ‘frustration’, ‘if only’, ‘why me?’, ‘how come?’ NO! Don’t go there, Kim. You have come so far from your “old ways” of reacting to the little stressors of life! Tell yourself that this is just an exercise in faithfulness, there is no serious life altering consequence. Yes, you are losing some sleep and tomorrow will be rough, but remember how far God has brought you from the way you USED to react to this type of circumstance. YIKES….those memories are ugly.
But now you are so much calmer. The dog would have been seeking a place far away….now you are quiet and no one really knows what you are feeling. You are calm and the effects of the failure will not have a lasting effect on you. You can see things with a logical lens. You are at peace. You are confident in your efforts. You are entrusting the results now to God because you put forth your best effort. You do not have to continue to work harder and harder, but only smarter. Proverbs 3:5-6 says, “trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all of your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.”
In fact, what seemed like a catastrophe in the technology and timeframe realm, just inspired this post. :-) I hope that in some way, that you can relate and are encouraged and will look to the ways in which God has freed you from old and negative thought patterns in your life rather than continuing down the same old blame game or dangerous anger angle. God does not want you dependent on your circumstances or your emotions: God wants you to depend on Him! He is the only one who is good. The only one who has the power to change both you and your circumstance(s). So look up now and give him the credit He is due and ask Him for your next thought, emotion, action and even for success in everything that you do.
As for me, I put forth great effort; I completed every task within my power; the ones that were blocked by technology glitches I will either feel compelled to try again tomorrow or I will have a peace that I am done. So I go to bed now, well after midnight with a deep, deep sense of peace and knowing that God is in control of all things and that He has changed me in so many good ways from my reactive, emotional past. I am thankful and go to bed praying for each of you, my readers, that God will do a special work in your life on this day and that you will be ever mindful and thankful.
WHEN YOU PUT FORTH YOUR BEST, PERFECTION IS NOT ALWAYS THE GOAL. PERHAPS IT IS MORE ABOUT WHAT YOU LEARN IN THE PROCESS OR…. HOW YOU REACT,,,,,,,, THAN WHAT YOU RECEIVE.